Conference '09

Wow, words cannot express how awesome this past weekend was. I went to the Federal Way pool and swam the best races of my life! God was SO wonderful to me and blessed me a lot this weekend. I thought I'd just give you a glimpse of how miraculous God's work was in my swims this week by showing you some stats...
Entered time in the 50 free:
24.08
Time after finals in the 50 free:
23.94
Entered time in the 100 back:
1.01
Time after finals in the 100 back:
58.53
Entered time in the 100 free:
53.31
Time after finals in the 100 free:
52.20

I dropped time in every single event! Wow, what a way to go out, I couldn't be any happier honestly. The team had an amazing performance and despite the girls' team was short 3 people and got second to the UPS girls, we still held 11 out of the 13 top highest scores in the meet. The guys won their seventh straight winning streak too. It was incredible and the atmosphere was like nothing I've ever experienced at a conference meet. AMAZING.

So, that was my swimming update, right now I'm training for Nationals so the coaches have boosted the yardage up again to break us down again so they can build us up with some strength later. So far, so good. :) Hopefully I make it, but I'm not gonna make any assumptions at this point, its all fair game for anyone to cut me off the list, so I'm just praying that that doesn't happen. If I do get booted, I'll know it was for a reason though, so I will be content no matter what the outcome is.

I realized I haven't written in this thing in FOREVER, so I thought I'd write a little about what is going on with me.

It's been an interesting couple of weeks. God has shown me some things. I am realizing that soon I won't be able to hide behind the veil of schooling from going out into the work force....that scares me a little bit. I am realizing that when I go home after graduation, I'm going to have to start over again with a lot of things. I am realizing how dependent I am on my parents and how scared stiff I really am of going out on my own. (I know I need to do it, to be an actual independent adult, but it just doesn't help when your parents actually want you to be home with them and you don't mind them either.) So I'm trying to motivate myself towards such goals of independence. I've also been praying/stressing out about my future career as a hair stylist/possible owner of a salon. Am I really cut out for managing a business? Will I be able to step up and be responsible when it comes to legal tasks and financial tasks, (both of which I have found that I am very weak at skill-wise), and if I will be able to persevere through those times when my business may not be looking very good. I want to be ethically solid and want to have a faith integration with my business but will I be strong enough to actually carry that out in a world that doesn't exactly embrace that worldview? I've been asking myself these questions a lot, along with random questions about my relationship status. Am I ready for one? Will I avoid it through work? Will I be able to handle work and a relationship if I happen to be in one when that time comes? Sooooo many random questions scrambling around in my head lately and I don't quite know what to do with them. I do notice however that all of these questions are futuristic in nature and there's no way that I can even answer any of them because I don't know the future. I know that God doesn't want me to waste my time worrying because it is fruitless, but sometimes thats easier said than done. I guess I just have to take it one step at a time. It just feels like my steps are very slow right now and far-between. I'm praying to be content with where I am at right now. God know's what will happen, I just sometimes have too negative expectations of what God can do in my life. Seeing my swimming results from Conference this past weekend you would think would show me the capability that God has to perform total miracles in my life....I seem to compartmentalize His miraculous works towards pertaining to only specific areas of my life, and think that they are not possible in other areas of my life. Why is that? God is still the same God isn't He? There should be no reason for me to think that he only performs miracles in some aspects of my life and not others. Anyways, I'm rambling now so I'll let ya'll go now, but I guess it just felt good for me to just write out my thoughts and concerns, I mean, they are only human concerns, ya know. :) -In fact, I think that now that I've written this down, it all seems less foreboding and scary now and so I don't have to stress about it. Thank you for letting me vent to you and I apologize. :) I hope everyone is doing well. Have a good night, I'm off to bed.